Ripping me away

Sorry I havnt posted in awhile, thoughts kept crashing on me so I couldnt log in. alot has changed though since I have. I got back together with my ex- she kept pressuring me into it and when she left me she was pressuring me to come out to my family...

Dont wake me

"Went to bed I was thinking about you, aint the same living without you, all our memories are getting colder, allthe things that i wanna do over. went to bed I was thinging about you, i wanna talk and laugh like we used to, when I see you in my dreams...

Made for greatness (part 2)

Sorry for the interuption earlier. SO yea like I was saying, we are all built for greatness and I want my story (Lord willing.) to be an awesome testimony that is obviously so insane and crazy that it paints a massive arrow pointing to God, and not...

Built for something great.

Last year was a trip. A big one. Last year, I met some incredible and..not so incredible people. I lost my best friend August 2014- she was a huge insperation in my life and I miss her like crazy- she passed away at 78 years old. I also found out some...

TO much build up..

Hey guys, I know it's been a long time since i last posted- alot has happened. I guess right now i am feeling more than a little- out of control. As odd as it might sound- i feel alot like that ball of wax floating in a cup of piss.. damned if i am...

I dont really know them..

It seems like everytime I bring my neighbor to the doctors I always write a blog post. I find it kind of humorous. Two nights ago when I went into my youth group I saw a group of the guys walking through the parking lot and since I don't have a...

Painful Patience

Clutching my fist under the counter I watched as a customer SLOWLY look through his money. I tried so hard to not glare at him with my pain-glazed eyes as I rang up his order and shifted while hopelessly trying to divert the constant, sickening ache...

Daily Life (Day 1)

Instead of talking about my "ground breaking revelations" (things I finally realize) I think ill just start blogging everyonce and a while about my life because having one blog session every 2 weeks kinda bothers me.. So today while I was sitting...

While im being honest..

It's funny how when people here things like 'depression' 'suicide', 'cutting', 'anarexia', 'self harm' and bulimia' they think of 'attention seeker' or 'freak' or 'weak'. But what they don't think of is mental illness like Down Syndrom or Autism or...

Inner Selfishness

Hello, sorry I havnt posted anything for afew days- I didn't know what to write. Been busy helping out my neighbor Gennie, working, working, and drivers ed. (Which I only have like..3 more days of till its finished :) ) I've been blessed so much with...

Into a family of conquerors.

I know she's going to read this but yea, ill try to be honest.   I guess not a lot has happened since the last time I blogged. I had  test at drivers ed and got a C- and I've been staying at my friends house.  Um.. I don't know what else to...